The Spanking Cup

A few weeks ago, Daddy informed me there would be a new system of discipline in the home, and it all had to do with a small glass cup. He came over where I was sitting and put it in my hand so I could get a better look. The label around the rim read, "Spanking Cup". Even more curiously, three small metal S hooks were hanging off the rim. Unsure what to make of the foreign object, I looked up at Daddy inquisitively.

He smiled broadly and introduced me to the spanking cup. The three S hooks around the rim represented an offense that was not quite so egregious as to warrant a spanking, but bad enough to need correction. Every time I committed such an offense, one hook was taken off the rim and dropped in the cup. There are only three hooks. Can you guess what happens when all three hooks fall into the cup? If you guessed a spanking, you guessed correctly. Go straight over Daddy's knee. Do not pass go. Do not collect two hundred dollars. At the end of the day, each S would go back onto the rim, and I would begin the next day with a clean slate.

Now Daddy knows me well enough to predict that I was already trying to figure out ways to abuse the system. For example, it would be easy enough to just get two S hooks a day. In fact, it is almost like being given a free pass to misbehave twice a day. This is why he told me very clearly that gaming the system in itself is a spankable offense, and that he would be quite vigilant in making sure I played nicely.

However, Daddy is also a very kind man. Another element of the system, designed to keep me from not misbehaving at all, involved a reward. For every day I go without getting ANY hooks in the cup, I get a reward. At this point, Daddy asked for my input in coming up with the most effective and reasonable award. This is how my punch card was created. I will let it speak for itself.

I personally think its genius. The reward is something I want very badly, but given so incrementally that it really requires long term good-behavior to be of any value. Daddy has never been a big bondage enthusiast, but he enjoys it enough to play along. With the new system, however, I don't feel like I am bugging him to do something just for me when I need to be bound and gagged. With my punch card, I know that he is just doing it for me, but that's ok because it's something I have earned. All together, it has made being tied up and left to struggle (my favorite) a much more regular part of our relationship, which has left me quite satisfied.

To this day, I have yet to get all three hooks in the cup. It's mostly split between no hooks or one hook. All together, it has been a very effective system.

Having said that, I'm always looking for new ideas on how to spend my earnings! If anyone has ideas for positions, ties, gags, what I should be wearing, where tied, etc... let me know!

I've Written a Letter to Daddy

Daddy,

I wanted to shoot you a short email about what happened this morning. I know from your perspective, this probably still doesn't count as a real spanking, but for me it was pretty intense. Since we're taking domestic discipline slowly, I thought you might want my thoughts on this minor step.


A few aspects of the spanking has lingered in my mind since I got in the shower. First, was the symbolic aspect of being over your lap. My developing interest in discipline focuses almost exclusively on over-the-knee Daddy/boy spanking with the hand. This was the first time that all of those symbolic, formal elements of spanking were present. I kept frantically thinking to myself "I'm I'm over Daddy's lap! I'm over Daddy's lap! I'm over Daddy's lap!" You know that I fantasize, and I think a big thrill for me this morning was experiencing the idea/fantasy. For example, I don't think I would have had this same thrill had you paddled me while bent over a chair. All the sexual and mental indicators of discipline were present this morning, and it thrilled and electrified my mind and body.


The second element was the spanking itself. More specifically, the physical aspect of the spanking. Through this, I experienced your strength, Daddy. That may sound strange, but it is actually uncommon to really feel your power. We both love wrestling and joking around, and I get a small sliver of it then. This was different, though. With one hand, you held me down no matter how much I kicked or wiggled. With the other, you administered very specific amounts of pain. You WERE completely, 100% in control of the situation, and I knew it. With every sting on my cheeks, I felt how powerful you were. Every time your hand would pull away, my heart would race with anticipation of the next swat. When would it come? Would it come at all? Would it be the same force as the last swat? Less? Double? And then your palm would strike my cheeks, and I would feel the rush of the sting. I felt this rush with every swat you gave me.

The last aspect of my spanking that really affected me is somewhat difficult to express. I suppose it is related to my first point. Basically, the spanking I received this morning was preceded by months of craving exactly what happened. I have thought about spanking non-stop since we started speaking more seriously on the subject. I know you overheard me spanking myself the other night while I jerked off, just to even get a taste of the feeling. It isn't just that this was a fantasy of mine, but rather that it was a new experience. The last time you spanked me, I was in a completely different mindset. This is the first time experiencing a spanking since I first became interested in it. I don't even have another experience in my life I can compare it to. It isn't like the first time I got fucked, or tied up, or any other sexual interest I have ever had. This came after weeks/months of desperate anticipation, and it made my heart and mind race.

I love you.

ben

...a discipline boy

[A guest post from Daddy]

In my experience, there are three categories of men involved in discipline: 1) spanking fetishists who leverage the intimacy, humiliation, and regressive qualities of discipline as a form of erotic foreplay 2) S/m players for whom discipline provides a rubric for the administration and receipt of pain and 3) spankers and spankees who wish to exchange discipline as an historically masculine form of care-taking.

I fall into the last category.  The first time I took a boy across my knee, I was a boy myself – no older than 13  – and he was a classmate of mine with whom I would fool around, experiment, fuck and discipline until we graduated high school. 

Most of the time, we would take out my parents‘ copy of The Joy of Sex, and choose a page at random; he would take the girl’s role, I the man’s and we would execute whatever the prescription.  As the years went on, he formed around me as a submissive bottom and I around him as a dominant top.  But there was something different about spanking.

Both sets of our parents were late baby boomers – Dr. Spock enthusiasts who dared not touch their children in an aggressive or angry or “corrective” way.  As a result, neither of us had been exposed to spanking as children; we came to it on our own, as two young men in the throws of adolescents.  That may seem counterintuitive and it certainly voids any prevailing bullshit about kink players having suffered some sort of trauma in their childhoods.  In fact, it is precisely the fact that our parents were hands-off that allowed for such pure and unbiased experimenting when it came to corporal punishment.

The boy (whom we’ll call Jack) was having trouble keeping his act together both at school and at home.  Sharing a secret as dangerous as gay sex in the early nineties midwest also meant that we could confide in each other extracurricularly, and, in confidence, he told me that his behaviors and truancy didn’t make him happy.  On the contrary, he felt out of control of himself and his situation.  Would I help?

I was in love with Jack even – no, even more so – as a flame-hearted teenager.  Inflicting pain for pain’s sake made me uncomfortable.  What I learned over time was that I didn’t understand what he was asking for.  As we experimented, as I went from smacking his butt across an awkward lap to disciplining him, I realized he wasn’t asking for pain, he was asking for attention – and intervention.

The intimacy of spanking – of undressing a young man, exposing him, and bringing him close while exacting precise control of the situation –  was a physical turn on.  But the experience unlocked a mental turn-on: effecting a transformation of behavior; helping my friend on a fundamental level; seeing him bend, break and rebuild in a form that befitted his goals and aspirations.  I wasn’t administering pain for pain’s sake at all.  I was in his service.

And from those early experiences with Jack, I wished to be the kind of man sufficiently responsible, intelligent, careful, caring and imposing to set boys alight: there heads, their hearts, and, by extension, their butts.

Being the instrument of change and a rock of stability for guys came naturally and, that is to say, with tremendous work.  There were rules to learn, or rather, to develop: To never discipline out of anger or malice; to take the goals of a boy more seriously than he may be willing to; and to fulfill an obligation of regret, to be willing to discipline even when the person you love would prefer it otherwise.   Because they’ve asked you to. Because it is your responsibility.

Heavy is the head who wears the crown; heavier still is the heart of the man who swings a paddle.  But when a man, your brother, asks you to take him to task, then you must steel yourself against your own protests even more than his.  Even though it’s difficult.  Even though it’s hot.

When discipline is requested and administered for the real benefits of change, the bond between two men grows deeper and takes on a special color that reveals itself through no other exchange.  It is unique, it is enormous, and it is fragile. A boy’s acquiescence is earned by leading an example of a well-discipline life.  A top’s hand is earned by the desire for improvement and offering the trust to allow him the privilege of effecting it.

Alright, sorry for the delay

So its been about three months since I last posted, and quite a bit has happened.

I arrived back at school for my final year after one of the most difficult summers of my life. I lost the Sir I loved more than anything, and with it, lost the ability to express myself as a boy. I was never aware at how much of a sub I was until I met Him, and now that he is gone I really just don't know what to do. No more bed time, no more grade minimums, no more any of it... Still, I have to keep chugging along with life.

I had met a local DC Sir a year or so ago just to grab coffee and discuss Dom/sub, Master/slave relationships. Sir Larry and I clicked well from that first meeting, but it never turned into actual boy training until about 6 months ago. He would have me over for random chores (polishing His leathers) or play. Coming back off the summer, I def wanted to reconnect with him. So far we have met up twice. On the first occasion, Sir tied me face down spread eagle to his bed and gagged me with his dirty briefs. Since I have quite the hairy little butt, he thought it was best if he shaved it smooth and proceeded to do so over the next twenty minutes. While I was still tied, I could tell just from his touch that I was perfectly smooth. For him, this meant I was finally primed for a good spanking.
Now one of the reasons I had met up with Sir in the first place was to expand my pain limits. I have a very low tolerance for pain and as an experienced and weathered SM top, I knew I could trust him to help me open up. This was our first spanking session, and it ended up being a really hot scene. He started very lightly; giving me soft open palmed slaps on each cheek. He would gradually, but steadily increase the intensity and I was surprised at how hard I was. With the non-spanking hand he would stroke my raging hard on which pressed against the sheets in between my legs. My NY Daddy had only ever used spanking for real discipline, so I was surprised at how into it I was. He would occasionally ask if I wanted it harder. Without even thinking I would BEG him through my gag for harder smacks. After a point I could tell he was really using my ass hard and I was really turned on. I moaned into my gag with every smack and he kept jerking me off. Inevitably, I ended up shooting a huge load all over the bed mid spank.

More to come, and once I am done catching up I will be updating this much more regularly.