Thursday, January 15, 2009

What a week

It started with a recon exchange as trivial as any other really. Greg messaged me asking if I would be interested in some training. Coincidentally he had done so several times through out the summer, but I never responded, because I was not ready to get to know (or even play with) another real Sir with so very much in common with Dave. This time around though I was more than eager to reply to a hot, muscular Dom top offering me some hot play.

He messaged me right before I left NYC to visit my family for a week, but since I would be back in NYC in only eight days we continued a fairly routine exchange. We spoke on the phone once or twice, exchanged a few messages, learned the basics of what we would need to create a hot scene together, etc... Being that I have been more interested in developing human connections (and not just sexual) lately, I asked him if he would like to grab some food as well. After all, he seemed like he had a good head on his shoulder and I could always use to make a few friends in the city. He basically said no, but added as a caveat that he wouldn't rule it out. He just wasn't very interested in trying to form some bond with a twenty one year old who lives five hours a way (a position I respected on all accounts).

So we scheduled a playdate for the first night I returned to NYC and I arrived for it promptly (as a boy should). Greg was much better looking in person, and it didn't take me long to realize he knew how to handle a boy. I won't go into too much detail about our play, not because I don't think its important, just because there was so much of it over a week that I don't know when I would find the time to write about it all. If I am going to write about anything, it will be the chemistry have, the connection we share, and how he swept this boy off his little feet. Suffice to say though...the play was fucking hot. Also must add that his feet are perfect for worshipping and his sweat the perfect amount, taste, and smell for foot worship, pit licking, and ball sucking. And that is all I will say for now.

He is fucking hot.

Ok, NOW that's all I will say on it. haha

After we both came (at least I think I came, I can't remember to be honest), Greg did something that surprised me. He asked if he could take me to dinner. Like I said, I completely respected his desire to keep things simple with an out of town boy who was only twenty one. Still, I was very intrigued by Greg and somewhat high off of our undeniable sexual chemistry. And at the very least, I wasn't doing anything better that night (I had no plans till the next afternoon).

We walked over to the west Village and grabbed a table at this tiny, but apparently delicious Italian place. On the walk I discovered that Greg was a food and wine connoisseur, and the restaurant certainly lived up to his claims. When we got there it was somehow understood that he was going to order for me, which is something I have always loved. Not only is this a way of deferring to a Sir, but its also my favorite way to try new foods. Its how I have tried a variety of ethnic foods, and I was thrilled to try all the new flavors Greg introduced me to. We started with a fennel salad with pomegranate and grape fruit. Our second course was a black linguine with a slightly hot tomato and pepper sauce. Lastly we had guinea hen which, as Greg suggested, must have crack in it. It was that epically delicious. It was one of the best meals I have ever had in my life...but it was by far the least interesting part of dinner.

There to enjoy this meal with me was a man of exceptional kindness, intelligence, strength, and generosity. I thoroughly enjoyed speaking with him at dinner, and found him to be incredibly charming. I quickly realized my play-date had somehow turned into a date-date...and I didn't mind one bit. I was quite taken with this man, and it was the most fun I have had on a date in a long time.

After dinner, we went back to Greg's apartment for movies, cuddling, and round two. I ended up spending the night and fell asleep in his arms. Again, this is something I had not done in a long time. It was nice...

The next morning I left completely invigorated by my night's journey. As I won't be detailing our play sessions, I also can't detail the rest of our time together. In the seven days I was in NYC I saw Greg everyday in some form of another, and the longest we went without seeing each other was about 36 hours when we both had New Years Eve and day plans. But I loved every second I got to be with him. We shared some delicious dinners (the best of my life), took some walks through the village, curled up to watch a movie or two, and just really explored the connection we were both shocked to discover.

On my last night I decided to lay it all out there. For the whole week we just did what felt right without worrying about what was going to happen when I left. We may have spoken about it briefly, and I think we both agreed that we were both too realistic and rational to expect anything. I wouldn't say this changed exactly, but on my last night with him I put it all out there. I told him how much I enjoyed his company, and how if things were different I would be very interested in pursuing him with the possibility of one day wearing his collar... and while still admitting it would be absurd to pursue something while I was, we agreed that I should come visit for a weekend soon. Maybe if that goes well, I could come up for another weekend...and another... and just see what happens.

Being back in DC for two weeks now, I have to say I have thought about him a lot. I miss him, and I still feel like our time together was a bit surreal. Still, the boy who was hurt and lied to not too long ago is starting to emerge. Last year at this time I was being swept off my feet by a NYC Sir named David who seemed to good to be true. Guess what, he was. And in the end, the distance between us ended up changing him...which ultimately left me devastated. I have started to develop feelings for Greg, or at the very least, a sharp desire to see him again and continue getting to know him. But I can't stop thinking about how horribly everything ended with David, and how extremely hurt I was during the process of his realization that he didn't want to get involved with a twenty year old boy who lived five hours away.

I'm scared guys, really scared. Not so much that I am going to give up on the opportunity before it has the chance to give up on me. I am still too young to be pulling that defensive nonsense, but I am going to tread with caution. When I am with him I put my heart on my sleeve and throw caution to the wind, but its these in between weeks where I have to be cautious and not let our connection get out of hand in a situation neither of us are prepared to deal with.

I don't know if you're reading this Sir...but...yeah. This is how I feel (complete with ominous ellipses). This is what our time meant to me (nay, it meant so much more to me than I could ever express through words), and this is how much I was swept away by your charm and your generosity (and hot sweaty body). I hope its well received.

Friday, January 9, 2009

Lunch with a legend

One day I was rather horny and somewhat ravenous for the old Bound and Gagged video trailers. I watched them as a kid (literally a kid, like when I was 11 and 12) and something inside me just really wanted to see them again. So I searched the depths of Bob Wingate’s blog (which I read every now and again anyway). I never did find the trailers, but I read his latest blog post and got the impression that times were tough for Bob, and that starting up production again was going to take a lot out of him. Feeling sympathetic, I sent him an email to hopefully cheer him up or alleviate his burden somehow. Was fairly short and simple, and really was just a thank you letter. In a short paragraph, I shared what the magazine and website meant to me when I was eleven years old and just starting to understand my own sexuality (which was heavily centered around bdsm). It helped me gain confidence in myself as a young man (I wasn’t ashamed of my desires) and I think a lot of people in this community can share similar feelings/experiences. I think we all owe a debt of gratitude to Bob, and I just wanted him to know that.

I never expected an email back, let alone in a few hours! He was overly kind and made me feel like we were close friends right from the start. I had sent him a link to my recon profile in my first email just to give him some background info on me, and when he replied to my email he linked me to his. I noticed right away that he is living in NYC’s Upper West Side, which was coincidentally where I was staying at the time. So we exchanged a few more messages and realized we only lived ten blocks apart. He asked if I would like to get lunch with him sometime, and I couldn’t have been more excited and honored to do so.

We met up at a small restaurant between our apartments, he chose it because there were few people and he thought we could have some privacy. I immediately took this as a sign of how different his life must have been from mine. I will talk about bdsm and my interests in front of anyone (yes even my parents know). Apart from having a fair amount of conviction, the only reason I can do this is because slowly the issue has become less taboo than it used to be. I’m sure for Bob, it really did always have to be whispers in the closet.

I think this was shown in our decision to leave the bougie restaurant we originally sat down at in favor of a more relaxed, but crowded, diner that was about a block away. I have to admit, I felt like an eager young journalist about to get his big scoop. While I hate history, the histories of SM and leather have always fascinated me, and I was ready to grill Bob about starting the magazine, running it, being involved with BDSM in the seventies, etc… I didn’t want to bother him too much though, so I let these questions come up casually. We mostly just got to know each other a bit, and shared personal stories and interests. What I learned was that Mr. Wingate and I have SO many interests in common. If we had grown up together we would have had each other bound and gagged every day! We were just so in sync with our preferences, fetishes, etc… Even in the kink world, it’s hard to meet someone who you feel so similar to.

We stayed at the diner eating and talking for about an hour and a half. Afterward, we went our separate ways with the mutual agreement to stay in touch (especially when I would be back in the city). I am glad he enjoyed himself, because for me it really was like meeting a celebrity. I feel very honored, and very lucky to have the chance to continue developing a friendship with such an interesting man who played such an important role in shaping today’s leather community.

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Call me Daddy Twink pt 3 (Conlusion)

Following the past two posts, this concludes my topping adventures in the big apple over the past few weeks. And what a conclusion it was;-)!

So Sunday I went to the New York Bondage Club (the only chance I got during my visit) to see my old and dear friends. I went every week this past summer when I lived in NYC, and the employees of the club were some of my favorite people I met in NYC. I remember after the first night they all invited me out to a local diner with them and I just felt very welcome.

Needless to say I was excited to see everyone when I showed up, and I think they were excited to see me. I had spent New Years Eve with most of them at a small party, but this was our home territory so to speak. Unsurprisingly, I was usually a bottom at the club, and had maybe topped one scene before. For a culmination of reasons though, I was feeling very top that night. Affectionately, the guys gave me an orange sticker to show that I am a top, with a name tag that said only "TWINK". Thus, my alter ego, "Daddy Twink" was born.

I hung out with my buds until Patrick showed up, right on time. We hung out for a bit, scoped out a good spot for a scene, and went to it. We drew a crowd pretty quickly, which I attribute most to how fucking hot this man looks bound. First we stripped him to just a pair of boots (FUCKING HOT) and then I covered his head with a nylon hood (light, easy, simple) followed by a blindfold since the hood was rather transparent close up.. I actually decided to retie him in the only position he ever got out of (wrists to thighs), intent on making sure he didn't get out this time. Soon the exact same tie was in place. Then, I put him in the bird cage ;-).

This cage was a tall slender bird cage that was tall enough for a man and could be suspended and spun. He stood up in it and I closed and locked the doors. It was then that I made my move and tied his wrists to opposite bars of the cage (solving the problem of the previous tie). I also tied his boots to the bars of the cage in a similar manner. This time I really wanted to see him try to escape (as did the crowd of rock-hard onlookers). Sure enough, his previous trickery was foiled by my upgrade and he was not going anywhere. With such a gorgeous handsome man tied at my disposal, and a captive audience watching (PUN SO INTENDED).

Our usual teasing ensued, only this time it was public, and I could tell from his raging hard on that being publicly humiliated by a scrappy kid was turning him on. I also had gagged him with a rope bit that I made while others looked and commented (that's right bitches, I am one CRAFTY mother fucker haha). I knew we were limited in the space, so I was jerking him off with the intention of letting him cum. Then I started to think about edging him...and it made me smile heheh. Luckily, that little bastard started shooting right as I was letting go. So I just grabbed his dick again and started pumping as he shot out a few cords of his hot cum. Again, he was fucking lucky I tried getting him too close.

The crowds cheered (in their own bondage club way) and slowly dispersed as I started to untie him. God he is fucking hot. Sorry, I digress. He got dressed and went to go see what he can could see in the club while I did the same. Later I saw him making friends with a taller handsome man clad in leather pants and a black tee. He waved me over and I started talking to them both. Pat introduced us and we all started hanging out towards the back. At some point, the new guy grabbed Pat's arms behind his back and help them there playfully (but firmly). Pat really tried getting loose and couldn't, so I came at him from the front, groping his crotch (which was already getting hard) and handgagging him. This two on one action was making us all hot, so we forced him down a dark corner of the club and chained him to some 2x4's nailed to the wall.

We stood back once he was restrained and I decided instead of tying his feet, pulling his pants and briefs down around his ankles would do the trick. Unsurprisingly, this worked like a charm, and was rather humiliating for our captive. For the next forty mins or so we took turns chewing on Pat's nips, handgagging him, choking him a bit, sucking his cock, etc... At one point I was bent over sucking his cock while the other Dom spanked me. That really drew a crowd. By the end Pat was really worn out, too much so to cum. So we just untied him and relaxed for a bit.

That was my last scene for the night, though I did later watch the other Dom top a scene with a hot newcomer after Pat left. I had a really great night though, and was thrilled to be back, and to get Pat bound and gagged in public. Afterwards, as always, the guys and me went out to the diner and was great just to hang out again. Thanks a lot, you guys are the best!

While this concludes the Daddy Twink series, don't forget, I had plenty more sordid adventures in New York City this break. Plenty of adventures in boyland to come including my lunch with a legend, and meeting the almost-perfect Sir. ^ _ ^

Call me Daddy Twink pt 2

Being that I made a brief trip back to NJ to visit my family and home friends (and ex, ugh), it was not another week and a half before Patrick and I met up again. This time I told him I wanted him in a bit less, a jock and some sports socks. So I showed up to find him as stunning as always. He was wearing sneakers, basic jeans, a belt, and a plain tee tucked into his shirt...a perfect example masculine simplicity. FUCK HE IS HOT! hahahah

Anyway (notice how distracted I get when I describe him?), we chatted a bit before I tied him, I and figured out a rough game plan. I took his shirt off and tied his hands behind his back. I asked him if it was alright and was so relieved to hear him say no (so many guys are terrified to communicate), especially considering I had suspicions that it would be too tight anyway. So I adjusted a bit and with his confirmation that it would be fine, continued tying him.

I unbuttoned his pants and pulled them down, revealing a white jock and white crew gym socks. I pulled his pants off and had him lay down on his side. This is when he realized what I had in store. I don't know if there is a name for this, but I was putting him in a tie where knees are tied to neck (not choking), and ankles are tied to wrists behind the body. It puts the captive in a fetal position sort of, and its rather immobilizing. So once he was on his side, I started tying knees to neck, and made sure to give him some slack (so he could struggle), but still make sure it was tight and restrictive.

After this was done, I used a separate rope to tie his feet since his wrists did not have enough extra. I first wrapped the coils around his ankles and cinched it lightly. I then brought the cinching rope to his toes and wrapped one coil around each big toe, pulling tightly, and tying a square not before bringing the rope down the soles of his beautiful socked feet. Halfway down I stopped and wrapped a few coils over his feet to restrict them more, before finally tying it off. I thought he may be able to get off, but if he could not I knew he would not be able to move his feet much. I finally finished by tying the extra on his wrists down behind his ankles where he could not reach. I stepped back to admire my work and was damn proud.

As proud as I was, he was equally surprised hehe. He struggled somewhat, but quickly realized he couldn't move much, let alone get free. Given this, I gave him less time to struggle than I did before and just dived right into teasing. I let him know how excited I was that he loved getting dominated by little punks so much, which made him grunt and struggle some. I also reminded him of a chat we had had prior, where he said he wouldn't be going to the New York Bondage Club unless I went. So I made sure to rub in his face what a baby he was; a full grown man needing a 21yo kid to hold his hand and take him to the big scary club. This got him struggling a bit, but I decided I wanted a bit more. Now Patrick isn't really into manscents, for him whats hot is that he doesn't like it, but doesn't have a choice (where most of us just get off on pretending we don't like it ehehe), so when I shoved my ripe pits in his face he started to kick and buck like a hot bound bronco! ^ _ ^! I was ragingly hard to say the least, but was especially so after his gag went in.

As just mentioned, he isn't into manscents. So for him it was really humiliating to be forced to gag on...lets say...my two day old socks (wink). So we played the same game we did last time with cock sucking. This time I made him really plead and beg for me to stuff my nasty sweat socks in his mouth. But really, what man isn't agreeable when you have him by the balls. I let him struggle a bit while I kicked back (his body as my foot rest) and checked some messages on my phone.

Soon after, unfortunately, his hands did start to go (to no fault of his for not saying something earlier, its just a demanding position) so I untied him. He checked a missed call on his phone and made a quick return call while his limbs wrested and I had some water. Soon he was ready to be tied again, and I was ecstatic to oblige.

I started to tie his wrists to his thighs. Now there are a lot of escape tricks to a tie like this, and I did my best to consciously avoid them at every chance. First I made loops in the rope that connected at the inner thigh so he wouldn't be able to twist his wrists towards the center and untie each other. Furthermore I also tied these loops to his balls, to make sure he didn't just slide the rope down his legs.

In addition to these tricks, I also put him in a basic chest/arm binder and tied his cock and balls tightly. When I say "tie" and "tightly" I mean every inch of his cock (except for head) was covered in rope and his balls were tied firmly (they are exceptionally tight and this was quite the challenge). I stood back again to admire my handiwork, and challenged him to get out. DAMN HIM! In something I certainly did not foresee, he was able to some how reach his fingers to the opposite wrist to untie his right hand. Oh well. I was exhausted, as was he, and I wasn't up for a whole new tie. So I told him to start jerking off while I stuffed my socks in his mouth and kept them firmly handgagged in. It wasn't long before he was cumming (keep in mind his cock was still completely covered in rope). I also came shortly after, again shooting a huge load all over his chest.

Again we finished very amicably, chatting for a bit before I left. His average-Joe colloquialisms always giving me a little tickle. Lots of "yeah man"s, "sure thing bud"s, etc... I left knowing I would be seeing him again Sunday at the New York Bondage Club. And yes, that post is coming soon.

Call me Daddy Twink pt 1

If there is one thing I think we should all remember, it is that no matter how much of a Dom Top or sub bottom we are, a little role reversal never hurt anyone! In fact, switching roles every now and again is usually for all involved parties. The new new guard is definitely onto something in its belief in the fluidity of roles, and while I may not subscribe to it whole heartedly, I have to admit sometimes I love being a nasty lil Dom top.

For the past several weeks I have been in NYC visiting old friends, making new ones, and even getting to know a truly remarkable someone (more on this later). One of those new friends I made was named Patrick. We met on recon, noticed we had some mutual friends, chatted briefly about me tying him up, and eventually I took the trip down to see him. There really is just something about this guy. He has a very average-Joe attitude to him, with a handsome face, hot body, hearty laugh, killer smile, and truly endearing personality. I must admit I have a bit of a crush on him, in a really weird sort of way. He's one heck of a guy.

ANYWAY! One of the reasons we met up int he first place was because he was looking for as a bottom what I get into as a top: rope bondage sessions with struggling and teasing. I can def top a scene, but I am not really a sadist and mostly just get off on a guy struggling bound and gagged.

So I showed up at his place and as agreed, he was wearing a full military uniform and he looked HOT! My draw almost dropped at how handsome and masculine this guy was (especially in said uniform). After chatting for a bit, we broke out the rope (which he had a surprising abundance of for a bottom), and got down to business. For that first session we only did one tie. A damn tight hogtie that was effective and certainly intricate, without being too fancy (a word of advice to all aspiring rope tops, if you can't do it, DON"T TRY IT! Start simple till you master the basics and rope your way up! All that pretty rope bondage you see in pics was done by people who have been practicing for years). I gave him a few mins to get out, in which he put up a decent struggle, until I decided to start having my fun.

First off, this guy's energy was perfect. He put up a damn good struggle and knew how to make it convincing (not like 99% of the guys in porn ("Please don't, noooo, I hate that...;-)" ew, gross, instant soft-on)). And he brought out the cocky top in me. I started by telling him he wasn't really struggling at all, and he must really not want out. I decided to start giving him some incentives at that point. I used his face as a foot rest, made him sniff my nasty baseball socks, pinched his nips, etc... Then I started asking him if he, an older 5'10 165lbs man usually let 21yo 5'5 115lbs kids tie him up in his apartment. I asked him if he thought all that muscle he had made any difference in that moment, where he could have easily out-muscled me if not for how well I had him tied (and now gagged with my socks). This really made him start to buck, kick, and mpphh! God I was so fucking turned on.

At this point I decided to kick it up a notch and pulled down his pants to expose his white jock and raging hard on! This prompted a whole new wave of teasing about how hard his cock was, and how much he was clearly loving getting dominated by a kid. For those of you who don't know, I have a pretty big dick, and I loved rubbing that in his face, metaphorically AND literally! First I started talking about how much of a bigger man he was, except where it counted. Soon I had my cock out and was smacking his face, asking if he wanted to suck it. He would yell a muffled "fuck you" through my dirty socks filling his mouth, which only made me harder. Since this was about teasing and humil as much as bondage, I decided to humiliate him a bit before he sucked it. Sure, I could have taken his gag out and forced his mouth open? But why force someone to do something when you can make them beg for it?

I ungagged him and asked if he wanted to suck my cock, and he more or less said no (there were some expletives). So I took a firm hold of his balls and asked again, when I was met with the same response. So I applied some pressure, asking again at intervals. Gradually the swears subsided, and soon he couldn't even respond his face was contorted in pain. Eventually he finally yelled "Let me suck your cock!". I paused for a moment, and squeezed again. "I said beg", I responded. "You told me to let you suck my cock, I said beg for it." I can't even describe how much his cock stiffened at this. I don't think he was used to playing with kinky little fuckers like me (who think like a pig). I squeezed a bit more, and despite initial resistance, eventually had him pleading and begging me to stuff my cock in his mouth.

I eventually obliged, which in itself was not remarkable. I don't particularly enjoy getting head, and I got the impression he didn't particularly enjoy getting it. It was the fact that I had made him beg that was hot, so the head itself didn't last long. Soon after though I was jerking him off, now regagged with my other sock, with my dirty jock strapped to his face. He didn't take long to cum, and after he shot a nice load. I finished myself off on his face (which was mostly protected by the jock).

I untied him and we just relaxed for a bit. I really loved spending time with him. And I think this is when my weird little mancrush for him started. Soon I had to go though, but don't worry, we had several more sordid adventures.